"You never did," Katie says, reaching over to touch Demelza's hand. "It's just how they are." It's easier to believe now than it was when she was still married to David. Even knowing she didn't deserve it, she couldn't help sometimes wondering if maybe she did, if there was something wrong with her instead. He tried to make her believe it, told her it was only because of things she did or because he loved her so much and she was hurting him. He'd get so upset sometimes after the fact that sometimes she thought it must be true.

Sometimes that's the worst part of it. Not that he hurt her, but that he undid her own sense, turned her against herself like that. Not that she couldn't trust him, but that she couldn't trust herself.

"But there are still good men in the world. Your Ross. My Russell. Ross sounds like a wonderful person. It's no wonder you love him so much."