The pains are still coming, sure and true, but having Ross undress her soothes Demelza like she'd known it would. His hands are gentle and she feels incredibly loved in this moment, knowing how much he's come to care for her, for the family they're building, and she'd never thought such a life possible for herself. Being born in Illugan to a man like Tom Carne should have guaranteed her fate. She would have been, at best, a bal maiden and at worst she would have been married off to some miner as cruel as her father, someone who might have hit just as hard or harder still.
She doesn't love Ross because he saved her, but there's little sense pretending she'd gone with him initially for any other reason than to protect herself. She doesn't love him just because he rescued her, but it does cause her heart to swell whenever she thinks back to the fight he'd had with her father, how he'd refused to let her go back to such violence.
His fingers pass over the scars on her back as he undresses her and she doesn't flinch, doesn't care at all.
"Judas, Ross, are 'ee putting another in me so soon?" she asks with a laugh, avoiding the rest, as they both know she's not likely to relax quite as much as he would like her to. "Suppose it might be for the best. Then I'd not have to find my figure again only to lose it in another year or so if things were to take such a turn."
As he helps her back onto the bed, another pain overtakes her and Demelza winces, clinging to Ross's hand. "Tis a wonder any woman does this willingly," she says. "We must forget the pain as soon as we see our child."
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She doesn't love Ross because he saved her, but there's little sense pretending she'd gone with him initially for any other reason than to protect herself. She doesn't love him just because he rescued her, but it does cause her heart to swell whenever she thinks back to the fight he'd had with her father, how he'd refused to let her go back to such violence.
His fingers pass over the scars on her back as he undresses her and she doesn't flinch, doesn't care at all.
"Judas, Ross, are 'ee putting another in me so soon?" she asks with a laugh, avoiding the rest, as they both know she's not likely to relax quite as much as he would like her to. "Suppose it might be for the best. Then I'd not have to find my figure again only to lose it in another year or so if things were to take such a turn."
As he helps her back onto the bed, another pain overtakes her and Demelza winces, clinging to Ross's hand. "Tis a wonder any woman does this willingly," she says. "We must forget the pain as soon as we see our child."